Azulona

Hey hey! It's been a while since I last posted a journal! Welp, main news is that I got a Nintendo Switch for my birthday from my family! (it was such a surprise I satyed speechless for like ten minutes). I really wanted to play Pokemon Sword and Shield, it's been so long since I last played a Pokemon game at the time of its release! I feel like a 10-year old again adventuring with my Sobble.
I still have no clue of how the Nintendo Switch works or how you can add people, still have to figure that out ^^'' But nevertheless, I'm happy!

Sometimes I feel ...so out of place? Like I'm alone and I don't really belong to any group... Or like I'm a bother to other people or they don't really want me there... It's not anyone's fault but mine, don't get me wrong, but lately I'm feeling too shy to even join RP groups like I used to do because of this "fear". I don't know...it just really sucks a lot...

I know maybe you guys don't care about this but I'm really liking my Pokemon Sun game and I just felt like sharing the Pokes I got in my team. Tbh I'm growing quite attached to them xD

Now they are:

- Damien -Male Decidueye. Bless the Rowlet line, they're my favourite starter line ever. They're plant types, have an adorable design and they're owls. That's 3 wins to me.
- Sirius -Male Lycanroc. This buddy here saved my ass in the Fire type trial with the dancing Marowaks and then the Salazzle... Couldn't catch a Water type that I liked but Sirius did just fine.
- Terpsichore -Female Oricorio, Baile style. She stayed all the way from Melemele as a Pom-pom and then Pa'u Oricorio but I simply love the Baile style, plus I needed a Fire type to carry on. Doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I'm Spanish and I have a flamenco dress that's similar to her color scheme, nope xD
- Haukea -Female Alola Ninetales. Ice/Fairy seems like a nice combination to me! Plus, I already loved the Vulpix line in general, so I had to get one of the Alola forms.
- Aegir -Male Vaporeon. Back when I was trying to catch a Water type an Eevee was born from the egg I was given at the ranch, but that one evolved into an Espeon before I noticed, so I had to catch another one and wait to find the water stone. However, it was worth the wait!
- Cathy -Female Butterfree. I found her as a Caterpie just at the beginning of the game, and I wasn't really planning on keeping her, but as soon as she evolved into Butterfree she turned into a BEAST. Also her Sleep Powder is really useful for catching other Pokemon. She's beautiful shuuush

So there it goes, sorry about the un-interesting post but I really wanted to post my team xD

Basically this is something that just happened and I know it's kind of a dumb story but...my mood is very low right now and I need to get this off my chest. Plus I don't have many followers here and not many read my journals so here goes...

So 2 days ago we found a stray kitten in some gardens near home. Like, a really, REALLY small kitten, a newborn. She even had the umbilical cord attached to her. Her sibling had died and their mom seemed to have rejected her litter, so we took her home, or else she probably would have died in the cold that night. For the past 2 days I've been taking care of the tiny kitten, feeding her every 2 hours with a bottle, keeping her warm and overall making sure she was all right. She's been such an adorable little thing. She loved to hide in my pijamas because she was really comfortable in there, and then climbed out and screeched at me when she was hungry. Even our dog loved her. 
The bad thing was...we are not allowed to have a cat in the place where we currently live. So...we had to start looking for a new family for her. However, what I didn't expect is that a candidate showed up the very same day we started looking! They were a nice family, who also owned other cats before and knew how to take care of a baby. So, we handed our kitten to them just some hours ago.
And you would say "But that's a good thing! If you can't keep the kitty it's great that she has a family now, right?" and yes, it indeed is a very good thing. I'm sure her new family will take great care of her and love her very much. But... I still feel so...sad... Like if I hadn't done enough. Like if I had...given up on her or something. I remember her little face and just start sobbing. I know it's been only two days with her and I'm probably making a mountain out of a grain of sand, but...I miss her already.

so anyway, vent rant over. I guess this will be deleted when I feel better